why is it that just when you feel you're "one step closer to becoming you" something happens that takes you ten steps back? now to answer my own question. i think it's because if we were to become who we hope to become we would have nothing left to work for in life, no goals, no desires, no triumphs, nothing to look forward to. so for now, we'll win some and we'll loose some and we'll work for the day that there will be total peace, peace of mind, peace in our heart, just plain old PEACE, the one thing that i desire most in my life but it always seems to escape me.
this all made way more sense in my head. please excuse (as always) my lack of punctuation skills. i try, realizing i don't know what the heck i'm doing. so if this makes absolutely no sense to any of you, remember this is my journal and it makes total sense to me. :) well maybe not all the time.